Tivenylegrunder my body, wal
Ivan smoke a cigselte. He places it in front of my lips and take a dagingselt, I cough heavily and he laugh at me
He’s probably nich
worry in my mind right now. I arachnot for the vodka, dunking straight out of the bottle and pouring hall of it on the
y fabian, langs tight formy shan my supples peaking though it. Ivan’s sante disappears. He states as if he’s about to eat me up.
band to tick a strand of hau behind any ear, his warm hand resting over the side of my face
Why did your attack those pops at faul’s party?” Heads “Allerling that father and I did to puni, I expected that it would please you to bear us getting. disgraced by other people, ”
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tit my head to the side, leaning deeper into his touch.
“So why did you do it, uhm?
“I don’t know.”
It’s true. I don’t know why I was so quick to defend van when all he ever did is hurt me. He smiles a little and comes closer to me. My heartbeat quickens a bit. Suddenly, he’s pressing open mouth lasses on my jawline, licking the vodka that coats my skin.
“You need to stop doing this, Catalina.” He mumbles. “You’re making it hard for me to resist,”
“…To resist what?”
“To resist you.”
I look into his eyes, seeing the most genuine sign of adoration in them. I don’t know if it’s the alcohol making him so vulnerable but I like this look on him. I close my eyes and latch onto his lips for a kiss. He responds to it with eagerness. The next things I know, I’m straddling him with his tongue in my mouth.
I can’t control it anymore. The pill has taken away my determination to fight against the lust. Even the weight of the cross around my neck is not enough to stop me from grinding down on Ivan, chasing after my own pleasure.
He’s the one who puts an end to it. He grabs my hip to stop me from taking this any further. I can tell that it must have been hard for him to take that decision. “You’re high, doll. Let’s get you home before you do something stupid.”
I whine in displeasure but it’s my only protest as Ivan carry me out of this club in his arms.
vanandretum to the mansion at around two in the morning. The guards are still patrolling of course but Valentine and Nico have long fallen asleep. The effects
pill haven’t completely wom att w I’m still laughing out loud for no mas
me up the stairs with his hand covering my mouth so I don’t wake up his brothers. We finally get to his bedroom and 1 slump on the sofa, suddenly Feshundion Teamed throughout the night
41’m going to throw up
not my mouth, I jump to my feet again and to the bathroom kneel by the toilet and empty my guts heavily. Ivan comes in after me (and sent with my throat buming so poch that it brings tears to dry eyes.
– Lakeng kona to a party, doll “tván chuckles from behind me.
Cup when I’m done. I brush my teeth at the sink and wash my face under cold water. Ivanbrings me my pajamas: change quickly before returning to the
unbuttoned his shirt underneath, I think he looks very handsome in this disheveled style. He’s on the couch. I walk to him and plop
irlap. He doesn’t even look surprisest as I start ninning my hands through his hair:
imone gives you a pill premise me that you won’t take it.” He says:
feel a little hurry. Ivan’s hand settles on ing waist to keep me in place
good girl. It’s not like when my father does it.”
father is a strange man and he gave me the creeps. When mama died, he started acting even weirder than usual. I didn’t push him back when he Cause I ditt want to hurt his feelings and then, he’d call me a good girl.”
bus Thanly notice is. I’a
between memory lane and this present moment. My head settles on Ivan’s shoulder.
told you where to find me just for a little bit of money A father is supposed to protect his daughter, right? Mine never did that. If kolow in my life. It’s also his fault if mem and my little brother Antonio died. If father had found a proper job and helped support us d have turned out different—Instead, he stole the little money we had ”
near… I don’t know why I’m telling you this right now, What’s done is done and I don’t see why Master Whitlock should care about my sad wild i don’t deserve any better and maybe you’re right.”
My eyes sonet with his
ng Caratina. I only said that to intimidate you but you deserve the world.”
The logical part in my brain wants to ask why he’s not releasing me then if he thinks I deserve to be happy but the intossicated side of
wasits to indulge in the intimacy of this moment.
and dream of us, dancing and lasting under the moonlight.
ng, the sun is already very high in the sky and Ivan isn’t next to me on the bed. Instead, I find little Nico, still wearing his pajamas. He
about to open in two, God, I’m in so much pain right now. What kind of pill did that girl give me? 1 remember how
(it’s giving the complete opposite. I think I’m going to be sick again.
book even now I have not heard my alarmstock. Did you eat something, honey?”
1 sit up on the bed. Nico is staring at me with stars in his eyes. He’s hoping that he guessed it right.
“Why do you ask that?” I wonder.
“Don’t low. Maybe you will marry Ivan and become our new mommy.”
“Oh…I’m not sure about that, sweetie.”
“Please I really like you, Lina. I don’t want you to leave.
The kid jumps in my arms and gives me a hug.
“Ivan will always be happy if you marry him and he will not scream on us anymore.”
I pat his back, not really understanding what put this idea into his mind. Unfortunately for him, I doubt that Ivan will ever think of marrying me. I remember our conversation from last night and though he was very nice with me, I’m now sober enough to know that he felt nothing but pity for me at that time. I regret baring my chest open to him. He didn’t need to know the full extent of my sufferings before coming into this mansion.
I’m definitely embarrassed.
“Let’s just go, sweetie.” I tell Nico. “Let me give you a warm shower.
He nods again
Ivan comes back home shortly before lunch. Since he’s
‘s wearing a jogger, I’m assuming that he came back from the gyin. I don’t ask questions as he igins me in the kitchen for a glass of water. Suddenly, he slides a pack of medicine to the other side of the counter where I’m standing.
“This will help with the headache. He says.
“Oh, umm…Thank you”
1 take the pack between trembling fingers. Why is he being so caring right now? I’m no longer under the drug effects. “I’m sorry I caused you trouble last night.” I mutter. “I shouldn’t have taken that pill
“It’s tine. The important thing is that you’re okay, right now.
Wow. What has gotten into him? He walks to the door but before leaving, betums around and says:
“I’m giving you authorization again to go into the garden if you like. I’m sure you can use some sun rays “Oh. Thank you so much.”
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He smiles before leaving. I stand there with my eyes wide open. Did van actually felt at
y felt affected by my sob story from last night?
