Thanks to ly change of behavior towandime, Eget to radoy the beautiful garden (the on every day now. The grands are still not allowed to talk to me but it feels goodtowe them around doing my daily walks and make
Iran still takes me withdiin to the office but lessilonymital. Now, my tips are reduced to inter per week which is fine with me because I caschrepump with any loss
; it a like alta li only Ivan would give me backing ple
To be hourst, things have improved drastically since Saul’s party, I semilde’t mind keeping i
cloudy waiting for him. Temmince myself that I’m doing it simply became t’im too scared to
Temmy teeth together, hating myself for feeling this war about a pochotic simudeser fast because he shined a little bit of kindness to me and even call it Kindess? Walking in the gardenshonldn’t even be a privilege, han havibune Hiding except stilge me of my independence; I shouliba’t feel any gratitude toward
him yet, as it glord to the combines, I just can’t bring twelt!
Tecomes home at around eleven in the evening. Ligisse his pieseire when he walks bote the living roman, frying forsmother my excitement Calling miserably. Tears plampu hinoelt down right next time and steals my bind of chips. The scent of his van de parfum takes nyra me again. It’s has signature perfume aind now become quite trippering for my senses. Iinikeste wand tobing my far lithivel
What air you watching “He acks.
His voice comes out in a shu, deep and filled witheshuistion. I want to tummy hand themigh his hair and ashchim about his day….
“It’s a movie called I could never be your woman.
“oh, the of those romantic ballsluts again.”
“Well, it’s absent this woman who falls in love with a guy much younger than she is.”
“And they made an entir movie about that?”
“It’s fun and romantic and Ugh, never mind.”
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I cross my arms over my chest. Ivanchuckles, tilling his mouth with chips. My eyes are strained on the TV screen but the truth is have no idea what’s happening in the movie ammo. My brain only cares about noe th Ivan, Ivan, Ivan
Thad a really tucked up day at work. “He says.
Trum to lim and find that he’s already looking at me. His band reaches up to play wirls my curls.
eld had tus meeting with the board. Apparently the comqjuny
w is not performing so well since I took over and they wanted to vent on how much money they weer losing. But the clung is. 1 barely heard what they were saying.
“Beralise | was thinking of you all the time.
My mouth bangs, shiglely open. Ivan appears perfectly relaxed like he didn’t just drop a massive bombome
“I was thandong of law I didn’t give our thing fuck about those old men and how I just wanted to come back home To you. Then, I thought that if I don’t make
niguny, 131 Jose you ton because 1. be able to keep you here any longer and I realized how that’s basically the only thing that
Issa confession‘ I don’t want to get excited for nothing but it definitely somats like he’s proclaiming his love to me. Is my brain damaged from watching
“You see, I’ve never berti antling but nonds all pry life, Catalina. That’s how fatherweighted it Eilon’t know who my mother is because i got separated from her when i was just a baby. There’s this institution called Kommunduse. That’s where father took me tobe raised. It’s some kind of expertiw school for boys, usually Bivse more from wealthy families. The ed iontheir was Mric, Catalini. They really fun you least into si mie and when I came home for holidays, father
cued me intai fils perfect Hale monster.”
İvan langhistlinglotlene’s nothing funny in what he’s telling me right now.
be a halend for women. They taught That women are tools and trophies to be used and never Very pinne der, Lievecimagine a different possibility My relationships with worsen have always been
The thùng Idea loped from all four years at kinasiour
derause ( was ripeneditedli berliet at Uned by the different ways Trouddi
firm, pusadout post take the abuse and move on like it’s nomal You light back. And I think that’s wiry father wanted ysto Come hem. He wanted to challenge que, expense ine for resistance and see bon Mmart. Unfortunately, I thinkdie dieil du disappointment because I still haven’t Tased you. I’anything, you pushed me to doubt everything I thought I knew. Maybe wonen aren’t just tools after all. Maybe they’re meant to be loved and treated
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Tare is slowly getting doses to mine and I don’t move ant
of deepening our kiss. boat allows me to
(as his lijos serkinino. His limsel bolds gently the back of my neck. Par my tongue slither in his cand Hake the initiative of exploring
onumy lower backas 1 lite his bower lip and pulls it gently, Ivanand Lopenoot eyes and we’re bodli panting
My only slides over his lap, straddling lim. His hamid falls nu telentlessly.
“Will you teach me?” He asks in a sort of pleading tone. “I really want to be a better man, Catalina. For you Will you show me the way?
And so, my hand caresses the side of his Lace lovingly. Inod, the words struggling to get out of my mouth but I think he gets it. Of course I will help him. I knew there was something good in him all along
