Chapter 38
I chuckle a little, he is so handsome.
“How is the baby and mommy doing?“the doctor we called enters with my mom, Marcus and Zander.
“We are fine” I smile, still staring at my little world.
“Well I have left some prescription with your husband and I’ll need to do a check up on him next week. Congratulations once again, I’ll see you soon” he says and Marcus escorts him outside, probably to pay him.
“Have you breastfed him?” Mom asks
“No mama” I say.
“Okay time to breast feed” mom says and sits on the bed while Zander sits in the chair looking at his son with so much admiration.
Mom helps me adjust him on hands and he immediately latches on the nipple and begins sucking
“Someone was hungry“I chuckle, so does mum and Zander.
“What are you going to name him?” Mom asks and I look at Zander.
We did discuss baby names and we chose one Incase it was a boy or girl.
For a girl we chose – Winter Elora.
And for a boy we chose, “Louis Autumn McLean” I say and I hear Zander sigh in relief.
Did he think I’ll change the name?
We are not together but that doesn’t mean I’ll do something without his knowledge.
“Do you want to hold him?” I ask and he nods eagerly.
I smile and mom helps him with the proper position of him
He is now asleep.
“Look at you. Daddy loves you so much baby. I’ll protect you with everything I have, I will not let anything happen to you.
You are my bravest hero” he whispers to him.
I know Zander must be sad about Rare but I hope, Louis fills that sadness with joy and laughter.
I am content with everything now.
Three years later
“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you. Happy birthday dear Louis, happy to you” we all sing for my little munchkin and he blows his candle.
“Did you make a wish sweety?” I ask my joy,
“Yes mummy” he giggles happily
“What did you wish for champ“Zander asks,
“That you and mummy live together again. I want to live with both my mommy and daddy, just like my other
Chapter 39
friends“he says and I can hear the sadness in his voice.
“I wish that too son“Zander says and I glare at him.
For the past three years, he hasn’t stop asking for a third chance with me. He has been trying to woo me with affection and gifts but I still not budging
He has been a great father to Louis but that doesn’t mean he’ll be a great husband again. Sometimes I am just waiting for him to mess up so I can take my son away from him forever.
But my therapist says, negative thoughts brings out negative energy.
Positive thoughts always.
I may have forgiven him because of our son but I don’t want us to be a thing again. I like the co parenting thing
with him.
We have arranged for me to move back once Louis is 6 years old to begin training
“Okay, everyone, time to cut the cake. Crystalise, sweety, you still haven’t gotten a dress for my wedding” Marcus says earning a swat on the head from his fiance.
“Thank you Jen” I say, he is getting married in a week’s time and I am doing all the preparation. I even designed the Bride’s dress as a gift to them.
“Aunt Crys, can I also have some cake” Rya asks, her hair in a cute piggy tails.
“Okay sweety” 1 say and hand her a strawberry piece, her favorite.
She is here with Kenna, her older brother and father.
This is my first time of seeing Kaden since I left the pack. He never came to see his nephew after he was born.
Mom says he was embarrassed by what he had done that he couldn’t bring himself to face me.
“Crystalise… Ermm can we talk?” He says rubbing the back of his head.
I kiss my son’s head and stand up, I point towards the kitchen and walk towards it.
I
He follows behind, and I stop at the isle.
“What did you want to talk about? “I ask.
“I know I fucked up and I probably the worst brother in the world but I am sorry, I decided to take sides and not believe you, I pushed you away and said horrible things to you, mean while Crystal was the horrible one: Tam sorry I let grief and anger bring a rift between us“he says
“You don’t get to be sorry Kaden, you always never liked me, sometimes I wondered if I wronged you in anyway, remember third grade, crystal and I had a fight and when you came you took her side without hearing my side of the story, you left me at school I until dark when mama came for me. You’ve always been partial towards me, don’t start apologizing now,like everything is recent because it started way before. You don’t get to be forgiven“I tell him point blank.
Fuck, I didn’t mean to hurt you or take sides, I always just thought you bullied her because that is what she always says. She was weak paired to you, you were brave and confident and I didn’t her want to feel inferior to you. “he says.
“Why is everyone mistaking Crystal for me! I am the one who was being bullied by her, I am the one with low self esteem, I am the fucking one who was inferior to her!“I glare at him.
I know.
- v. Now I know that. I am sorry I hope you forgive me one day“he says
Forgiving you is easy, because I forgive you but we never be siblings again. I lost my brother the day he called me
a murderer an you lost me the night you chose her over me“I tell him looking straight into his eyes.
I can see tears gather in his orbs but he blinks them away.
“I understand you, but I hope I didn’t stop you from loving my kids” he says and I shake my head.
I love my niece and nephew and forever will, even the one Crystal had with Matthew, we have grown a strong bond, and they even spend something with me during vacation.
I walk back to the party to see my son sitting on his father’s lap playing with him.
Although Zander is laughing, his eyes looks sad.
“He misses you, you know. He loves you, I can see, he has shown it and it wouldn’t hurt to give her a third chance” Marcus whispers in my ears.
“I can’t believe you are telling me this” I chuckle,
“Meaning, you can trust me, for the sake of your son, just give him another chance. I promise it won’t hurt and if he hurts you again, I am going to blow off his head” he says sweetly.
“I am scared” I whisper weakly after a moment of silence.
I know and it is going to be worth it.I promise“he says.
