Please My Darling, Marry Me Again
Chapter 10: This is Goodbye
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My time awake kept getting shorter and shorter, and every time I opened my eyes, a bunch of pink roses would be placed next to my bed.
I no longer refused Tristan from entering my room, but I also no longer looked at him.
When Maddie came to give me an injection, she would secretly wipe away her tears. I felt guilty inside, she was just starting her career as a nurse, and already have to deal with a dying patient.
I squeezed her hand, “I’ll give you a present.”
“What?”
“If you don’t cry, I’ll tell you.”
The little girl pouted her mouth, “Who cried? I didn’t!”
I laughed, this present, can only be given when I’m dead.
Tristan would help wipe my body since I could no longer move, I let him.
I looked at him and said, “You’ve become a bit ugly.”
He nervously put down the towel and asked me: “What don’t you like? I’ll go fix it.”
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I shook my head, “Don’t bother. Even if you fix it, you can’t turn back the clock to 18.”
I said, I still love the clean and refreshing young man.
Tristan forced a smile and lightly helped me cover the blanket.
“Tristan, did you fall out of love with me because I grew old?”
I was really curious, but Tristan didn’t answer. He turned his back to me and sobbed, his back shivering as if he was about to faint from crying for a long time.
At night, he held my IV tube and touched my cheek and said, “Abby, you have always been so beautiful, the most beautiful.”
Liar, then why did you fall in love with someone else.
I no longer responded to him, rolled over and fell asleep.
After begging Maddie for more painkillers the 100th time, winter finally turned into spring.
Spring came after a heavy snowfall.
Joyce came in with fruit and asked me, “Can you take me out for
a walk? It looks nice outside.”
She looked around and asked, “Where is Tristan?”
I said, “He went to buy flowers.”
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Joyce smiled and put on my thick coat, pushing me out of the
door.
When we passed by the nurse’s station, I saw Maddie, and I waved at her with a smile. But she lowered her head and tears started flowing.
I asked Joyce to get me another coat and waited for her.
“We haven’t finished watching the TV series yet!” Maddie said with teary eyes.
I smiled and said, “300 episodes! We’ve already watched 298 episodes!”
“There are still two episodes left!”
She’s trying to tell me to come back. Of course I knew that.
“Just two more episodes left, watch them yourself.”
I told her I was going to another world soon.
Maddie wanted to say something else but I told her, “Remember to be happy, Maddie. That’s the most important thing.”
Maddie was a good girl, she deserves to be happy.
Joyce was pushing me around on the wheelchair, I let her stop at a warm patch of sunlight.
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The spring sunshine was warm, I lazily asked, “Joyce, You were the one who told Tristan I’m here?”
Joyce paused, then bent down and asked me, “Do you want some water?”
I laughed, “It’s alright, it’s alright.”
“Peter is getting married, right?”
She didn’t stay silent this time, “Mm.”
“What do you think about it?”
Her gaze moved far away, her voice like it was being blown by the wind, “I don’t know.”
I nodded, not saying anything else.
“Jojo,” I suddenly spoke, calling her nickname.
Joyce stiffened her body, her eyes turning red.
“Jojo, do you remember, when we were in school, what was our wish?”
Joyce pulled up the corners of her mouth and thought for a
moment before saying, “I wanted to be a baker. We used to love eating desserts, and I wanted to make the tastiest desserts so that everyone who ate them would be happy.”
What a simple wish.
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Joyce was raised by a single mom, and similar people always love to keep each other warm. We tried to get closer to each
other.
The cold night snow would be melted by the warm sunshine, and Tristan was the hottest ray of light in my life.
“Abby! Abby! Abby!”
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I turned my head and saw Tristan calling my name while holding a bouquet of pink roses at the window. He was very rushed, and half of his body was already sticking out of the window. I looked at him from afar and thought, this is enough, just this one glance is enough.
“Shall we go back?” Joyce tried to push me away.
I stretched out my hand to block her and said with a mischievous smile, “Jojo, this is the punishment for you secretly telling Tristan.”
You have to be the one to watch me die.
Joyce’s tears started to flow and I raised my hand to wipe them
away.
“Jojo, look, if I had to say what I want to see the most, it would be this scene right now.”
I secretly pointed to Tristan and said, “Tristan worrying for me, looking for me, caring for me.”
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“It’s been half my life since I first met Tristan.” I leaned back to make myself comfortable.
Half my life… How long it’s been.
“The good, the bad, all of it came from him – the most sincere feelings, the most poisonous words, the most difficult emotions to let go of.”
I closed my eyes and said with a choking voice, “Jojo, how did we both… loose ourselves for a man?”
Where did the initial dreams, simple wishes, and easy joys go?
“Jojo,” I reached out to grab her wrist, softly saying, “I wish we lived in a fairytale world, where if we ever encountered obstacles, someone would come to save us.”
“But that’s impossible, Jojo, impossible…”
Tears fell from my eyes and splashed onto my palm, “Jojo, who can save us?”
“Only we can save ourselves…”
“Jojo, I hope you’re happy. You should… You should be the happiest one!”
We should have been happy.
Joyce’s lips quivered, tears falling onto my hands, and she
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repeated, “Abby… don’t go… Abby… don’t go!”
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We were all grown up, and rarely said such things, the last thing we should do on the path of growing up was to say childish words.
But between life and death, everything can be forgiven.
I watched her cry, but had no strength to help her wipe them
away.
“Jojo, do what you want to do.” No matter what, I hope you do what you really want to do, even if it’s still to stay by Peter and wait for a love with no end in sight.
“You should… be happy.”
Be happy for me.
“Abby, Abby, wake up, do you have anything to say to Tristan?” Joyce sobbed beside me.
My consciousness began to blur, my soul seemed to be sucked out, and I could only shake my head stiffly.
What should I say?
When I was in love, I said enough sweet words; when I wasn’t loved, I said enough pleading words; when my heart died, I said so many hurtful words.
What else do I have to say to him?
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I have already said everything I could to him in this lifetime.
So it seems we have nothing to say when we reach the end.
“Jojo,” I still managed to smile at her.
“It’s a sunny day.”
It’s my favorite, a warm sunny day.
On the road to the underworld, it won’t be cold either.
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“Abby!” Someone shouted hoarsely and ran towards me. When I looked up, it looked like Tristan, holding a pink rose in his hand.
He stumbled and ran towards me, as if he had used up all his strength.
In a daze, I seemed to see the young man in his white and blue school uniform panting as he ran towards me, holding a bunch of wildflowers he had hastily picked up from the roadside.
He blushed and looked at me straight in the eye and said, “Abby, can you… be my girlfriend? I promise I’ll be good to you!”
I just smiled and took the flowers from him and said, “Okay, then it’s a deal. You mustn’t break your promise!”
Tristan, you mustn’t break your promise.
That tear that was promised never to fall still slipped down the
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corner of my eye.
As spring returns to the land, I sleep forever.
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